Sunday, November 25, 2007
and while i'm still on my room decor high, i really want a chandelier in my room [HINT TO ALL THE KIND SOULS OUT THERE PLANNING TO GET ME AN X'MAS PRESENT]
cos i'm ultimately dreamy and childish at heart.
and then since i'm so childish i'm not going for training, but i will go when the new school year starts. even though the people in there are rather nice and i actually wanted to know them better but it's so much nicer running on my own and going on my own pace even though i almost always do something like that in training anyway. since i do run on my own regularly, i feel less of a slacker. but to each and everyone in x-ctry including mr coach thank you for having me. and i'll always be rooting for all of you even though you might not even know my name as of now.
i know i'm seeking to develop myself further in running but not in running in a team. i think it's sufficient that i continually develop discipline and willpower and perseverance and stamina, without the part about competition and the pressure of not being able to perform up to other people's standards/expectations. maybe when i need the companionship when i'm older since adults always seem to have fewer friends and they tell us that we'll have fewer friends when we're adults i'll join a running group and then i'll attend sessions regularly.
as of now i'm not exactly pleased with the way i'm choosing to handle things now and especially all the time i have on my hands now which isn't much, but at least i'm living according to the schedule i've made for myself.
